Depressing Thoughts

Sometimes, an overwhelming wave of loneliness just rushs over you...

nothing is certain... Life is never certain...

something could be here one day and gone the other....


When you just feel something is wrong.
When you feel something is just not right...


Its been a long time since I just stared into blank space and cried...


I just know somethign is wrong...
but I don't know what is wrong!


I love him... just him... alone, nobody else comes even close...


I don't want him to leave me...


Why do I feel so vacant in his heart?

I just want to hold him tight and never let go, look into his eyes and tell him that I'll be there no matter what...
Its not a preference of what he does, how he looks or how he acts.... I just love him because he is him.

I'm getting paranoid...

I can't believe I'm getting paranoid over my relationship... I swore I would never ever become paranoid over this kinda stuff..



he's depressed too...
and I dunno why...

I dont care who is the active, who is the passive, who is even the top or bottom in the relationship.

I can be anything, as long as I know that you truly love me the same.


I love you beyond whatever you can imagine...

I have never loved anybody so much in my life before....


but, when the time comes, please make it swift.... I'd rather kill my heart faster then slowly let it die...


*cries*


arrgh.... I just wrote something so mushy I think I can die just reading it.

If someone wrote that about me I'd freak out too...

sorry dominic...

umm... dont take it too seriously ya... Its just a mood swing thing....